Nothing More Than This

A day like this is never properly expected

You thought it might be a preview but it ended up to be the whole show

We never speak the way we did

We never felt the absolute silence in a dream

So bitterness turns bland

And bland disappears into the void

So there's nothing left but laughable regrets

Wasted emotional currency

And fears that turn out only to be child's play

There is no feeling as unbearable as the absence of it

No hunger more insatiable than none at all

And for this, I stop wandering in the same shiftless patterns

For this, I have to pay my dues

For all this, what we could have had is all we never will

Because it all stopped

Because it all became an affair of the mind

And mind you

There was nothing more than this

Farther

Nestled at the very center of my perception is all that I wish you to be, both the possible and the improbable

Names don't matter here because all I dream will be renewed day after day after day, 

disrobed and discolored, 

reversed and recovered, 

as circles never end

and cycles have no origin

And yes, perhaps it took the different gods six days each to create the world

But your Lady took only one to build mine

And some say they don't believe in evolution but they love you one day and murder you the next

So why not crank it up a notch?

And let us sit upon the lowest step of heaven to bask at the idealized view of the imperfect beneath even where we are

Distraught and peeled down to the layers we dare not reveal,

We see only the faces of past failures,

Nameless rejections to and fro,

We give and we take but never to rest the scales

And so life is that bitterest pill that I can't take without a stiff drink

Everything worth losing your consciousness to...

Everything worth dedicating your remaining days to... 

is a long shot

Culture massive dreams if you wish to live forever

Never forget this

It will take you farther

And her world is yours

And the world will know your names